branded.

i'm not at my breaking point. but the world is in so much upheaval that I cannot live without expressing my care for you. i know there has been much energy transmitted between us but, I care for you. i want to feel like its ok to call you. i still don't. i want to hear your voice and maybe i'll call...but for now i'll wait till your birthday. i feel honored to live and love your glow. you are still very special to me. the Universe still reminds me of you around every corner. what can i say...i still seek you. i get nervous thinking of how "tough" a relationship would be with you. but i am motivated by this uncertainty. there will be things we will both have to accept about each other in order to make something work. my question is do you want to try and make something work? it does not have to be today...really i put no time restraints on your decision. to honor myself i believe both that i deserve better and that you are actually worth this sacrifice. optimistically i believe you/ i am worth getting better first. i have a way to go and for being on my path I am grateful. I trust that what i started i will have another go at. but, there really is no way of knowing if the point is just to love someone with all you've got or if i will actualize something incredible with you in the flesh. you are more than i asked for..you are exactly what i needed to get by and beyond. i enjoy this time of focusing on my responsibilities, as it prepares me for my future as a PT. You remember me, i know, i feel you luv. what more can i say?