in D flesh

A friend of mine told me putting personal information out on the internet is dangerous...

I'm a rebel...and I wish to declare my love for Beloved on this day! Over the past couple of days I've been receiving some very intense feelings of closeness to her. It's kinda wonderful! I seemed to reverse the polarity of our "time apart." In a recent e-mail, she apologised for "hurting or misleading my feelings."

I believe every word of it.

I am thankful for her decision to contact me at random and for being apologetic, even!
I am convinced I did the right things with her.

I am walking towards my career goals and am not looking back. I'm not done yet, but ... there may be a window for me to re-enter her life.

How wild is it that my first may be my one true... A blessing indeed.
I am so fortunate for even meeting her and patience is teaching me more each day about how important she is to me.

I actually had an idea while in her presence and it seems my sincerity is translating to her being.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm scared as all heck to make a mistake with her, but it's inevitable... I want to be such a great person to her. I really don't know what exactly I'm to do to keep her happy and trusting of me, but keeping my word is a start. I can stand firmly on my decision of celibacy and am reaping the benefits!

Deep down, I still want to know more about you...to talk with you and to learn from you...to share good times with you and to be there for you best I can.

It is 2008 and I am close to courting, if this delicate, old-fashioned, yet Christian process of mat-selection hasn't already begun.

I cannot say these things directly to you, so I will write them to relieve my heart of what I feel is needed to be said. I wonder if you do anything similar. I wonder if you've re-read the book I wrote you. I wonder If I'll write another one for you. If I do revise the first one, it will look like a work of ART, I promise!

And, if by chance you've discovered this blog, then I commend you and honorably, I love you unconditionally. but you should already know that by now... i think the song goes, "if you don't know me by now, you will never,never, never, know me... oohhh oooh oooooh..."

yeah, still a goodie!
:c)