D Well-ing

I should be overjoyed. And for all concerned parties I am quite satisfied with my current situation. Two great internships in preparation for Physical Therapy School. A family that supports me, wonderful friends, and a warm place to rest this winter.

I heard from Beloved between thanksgiving and Christmas... It was a wonderful surprise yet, I had VERY strong feelings on my way home and sure enough there was a message for me. She apologised for hurting or misleading my feelings...no response was needed and her closing was peaceful.

Then I got a random text message on new year's eve saying, "I LUV U!" from her friend. How interesting. I've had strong feelings that Beloved likes to communicate through other people as a way to protect her identity... there was a recent transmission where she said, "hey" and asked about the Jena 6 Benefit Concert in VA.

--the white people where I am interning are now discussing gun fire with respect to new years... though I do not engage it's typical confusion of our behavior that makes discussion topics in offices, over lunch in the South.--

Back to prettier things, it may be considered "middle school" you know, my friend has a crush on you type ish, but I think its just fine if she wants to be discreet. We are all allowed a blanket for our most unclothed emotions.

I trust that there will be a day of discussion between us again. I will fight to keep a positive perspective on the situation despite being somewhat neglected. It is good to fight for the future and even still, as her idealism becomes more apparent.

I am thankful for a most memorable 2007 and am extra excited to receive a text message of happy new years well wishes from Beloved. I think she's waiting on me to communicate first...guess she'll have to wait till the next holiday.

I'm being kinda short with her in my text messages... responding to her communications in metaphor/ indirectly

for example my Thanksgiving reply was " cool beans and stuffing."

and For New Years she got a "Rite Rite!" in response to her Happy New Year!

I did leave well wishes on her Myspace page, because no matter how bad she is, everybody cool deserves a myspace comment saying HNY! That comment was artistic and playful as I attempt to create appreciation for my creative communications. She get's it. And I'm glad to still be in the midst of all this confusingly beautiful love shit a year later.

08 is here, we are already great. I pray for my own triumphs in the arena of career and health this year.

Peace y'all!

-delano