ReceDing

Accepting greatness in your life does not come with cruise controls. Living to a certain personal ideal means moving while others don't, and remaining still in chaos. As I age, I find more reasons to love myself...for being myself. At times, normalcy seems very attractive. But, of course being anything but yourself will lead to major issues down the road. I take pride in living and loving as I do, which is quite freely. There are indeed times when I'm able to channel my energy and complete "tasks." Though free-spirited, I do enjoy working to satisfy my soul. Being me, involves focusing my passion and when "work" is involved aligning my passion and my progress make for a very hard working me and dedication to a career.
This is why I've chosen physical therapy as a career goal. It allows me to remain in service to humanity and to earn the respect from this world that I deserve. I find my own ways of remaining open to this type of "assisting" energy. It guides me and as such, I've become quite an emotional sponge for others. That added to the fact that I feel greatly under appreciated by some people, self-denial, and falling in the Cancer astrological sign are making my hair thin.

I must decide in my 20s if I will make use of Rogaine or some god-forsaken goo to make my hair grow back... I don't like that idea. whatever happens, happens.

Beautiful life, I thank you for sparing us for this long. I thank you for keeping watch over us and enabling us to try to get better. Thank you for agitating us when we revert. Thank you for allowing us to think, get confused, and still have to make decisions. Thank you for giving us issues, that we might seek You still. Thank you for help from other human when it is needed. Thank you for making us each individuals. Thank you for designing us to grow. Thank you for giving us just what we need, even if it makes us temporarily uncomfortable. Thank you for times of joy, peace, and happiness.

I've reached a point I must be ready for. The meeting of a new friend. What will I make of what I've started. Part of me is ok...what's done is done and will remain. Then part of me doesn't want any new friends...well kinda. And yet still, I accept this person as worthy as any other. So, do I feel weird. Not really, just want to enjoy life as I should. Oh yeah, I actually got jealous of that L.A.N. you showed up with at the party. Kinda funny that he looked lame, but whatever... it worked.